My Angel

AUGUST 22, 2011 was the day that changed my life forever... The day when the most precious girl in my life, my niece Nin-nin went back to her Creator... It's hard, it's painful. I was in denial then... It was exactly 6:20 am when she said goodnight to all of us... I couldn't explain the pain, I even questioned God why do we need to pray when he does not answer it? All of us were in grief and the most painful part for me was after three hours that she's laying lifeless in the bed I didn't have the strength to see her, I didn't want to see her dead but because I love her so much I entered the ICU, I kissed her and said: "Goodnight Nining ko, I love you!" I was planning to stay there just to be with her for the last time but I could not bear the pain. I ran out and cry my heart out. 

Fast forward, a lot of people visited her during her wake. I was wondering where are these people coming from and how they've met my niece. Everybody has their own anecdote on how bibo she was when she was still alive. Aside from her immediate family, one of the most affected people was Nanay Pacing. Both her siblings died, she didn't cry. Only Nina made her cry. When she cooks, she was there. When she's gardening, Nina was there. When she's doing something, Nina was there so how can she not cry when Nina was almost her shadow? Few months ago, I made Nina an account on Facebook. When she died and I visited her account, I cry every time I read those messages on her Wall most especially the post of Mommy Rebing and Daddy Rupy who loved Nina so much. Before they left in April, they made bilin that we should take care of Nina because they loved her so much and that she always make them happy with her actions. That only shows how much she was loved by the people around her. At least during her five years of stay with us, she was able to experienced to be loved. I want to thank Nina for everything, for giving us the joy and inspiration.


As I was reminiscing, I remember that I even questioned God about Nina's death. When I prayed, I asked Him to heal her. To ease her from pain. I was wrong when I said that he doesn't care about my prayer. He did not only heal our baby but he also gave her an everlasting life. No more pain. No more sadness. No more hunger. The signs that Nina showed to us somehow eases the pain because those are manifestations that she is happy now with God. That she is an ANGEL. So my baby I can't wait for your wings to wrap around me baby. We missed you so much! We love you and you will always be in our hearts.